The Sweetest Gift I’ve Ever Received on Valentine’s Day That’s Not From My Boyfriend

Confession: I’ve been in a relationship with my boyfriend for almost eight years, but Valentine’s Day has never been cheesier for me than on February 14, 2013 – the only time in the past eight years that I was single.

February 14, 2013. Apart from the tiny drops of rain on the school grounds and the cold weather, all was well that day. I was single – my ex-boyfriend (who’s currently my boyfriend) and I broke up in December of the previous year. I was the one who wanted to end our five-year-long relationship and I didn’t regret it. We got back together in May of that year and during the five-month break, I let myself enjoy the freedom that has been deprived of me since my sophomore year in high school. I allowed myself to get out of my comfort zone. I let myself get to know those guys who wanted to court me but couldn’t because I was taken. And then I met that guy.

February 14, 2013. I never paid much attention to Valentine’s Day. I’ve witnessed a bunch of Valentine’s Days come and go in my entire lifetime and the only solid conclusion that I’ve made so far is that this day is too overrated. To be honest, one of the things that made me fall in love even more with my boyfriend is the fact that he knows how to respect my disdain for overrated stuff. So, when it’s that time of the year again when everything is about hearts and flowers, we do anything that’s not hearts and flowers. However, there is an exception and it happened on February 14, 2013.

February 14, 2013. My blockmates and I were waiting for our English Proficiency II professor when one of my friends told me that someone was waiting for me outside the classroom. When I asked him who the mysterious guy was, he told me that it was that guy. Like the introvert that I am, I told him to tell that guy to go away. But that guy insisted and told me to come and meet him outside because he wanted to ask me something personally. I said no. After a few minutes of persuading me to accept his offer, that guy finally gave up and left an elegant black box wrapped with a thin blue ribbon. When I opened the gift, it immediately knocked me off my feet – inside was an intricately made paper rose and a three-page-long poem that the 17-year-old me would remember for the rest of her life.

February 14, 2013. My disdain for mainstream gifts and routines on Valentine’s Day was so deep that I posted this on Facebook: “Dahil ang mga tula at kanta ay naaalala at ang mga bulaklak ay nalalanta.” (Because songs and poems are remembered while flowers wither.” That guy wrote so many poems for me – some of these he posted on Twitter, some he handed me on our way home, some he left in a book that I borrowed from him. And on February 14, 2013, that guy sent me the most beautiful and thoughtful love poem that I think was the sweetest thing I have ever received on Valentine’s Day that was not from my boyfriend.

Get ready to get knocked off your feet.

Tonight I write you a Valentine

Gazing upon the sky’s great divide

The deep purple of the coming night

The vague orange of the departing day

The clouds fade and stars appear

Tonight I write you a Valentine

As sleep eludes and tortures me

With the suspense of dreams

That won’t come true

Sandman taunts me not

Tonight I write you a Valentine

You may not want it, but you can’t stop me

For even the strongest of cactuses

Needs to feel rain every now and then

So tonight I write you a Valentine

You are the lead buried deep in my finger

I may never get it out but if I do

It would leave an everlasting memory

That once in my life you were a part of me

Without you the days would go by

Unexciting and uninspiring

Tonight I write you a Valentine

I promise I won’t look for another

Every time I close my eyes

For you are my only Valentine

But how does one keep petrified

Staring at your amazing eyes

Looking deep in my soul

Shaking my very core

Ripping every fibre of my sanity

Tonight I write you a Valentine

My heart melts faster than ice

Every time I see you smile

Everything and everyone is a blur

Nothing more exists in my world but you

Tonight I write a Valentine

Words uttered from your beautiful lips

With the most angelic voice

Creates the perfect air disturbance

Known as sound to many

But it is music to me

A tone that punches my heart with every line

Tonight I write you a Valentine

Your hair is what I miss the most

The way they wrap around my finger

Like snakes not wanting to let go

You give me butterflies at best

And killer bees at worst

Tonight I write a Valentine

You are the most amazing girl

You are one of a kind

Your voice makes my heart melt

Even when you say good bye

I will always look forward to

The next time I could try

To make you fall for me

Because you have that smile

That makes me feel so alive

Tonight I write you a Valentine

But will you be my Valentine?

When there’s a will, there’s a way

And my will is to give you

An unforgettable Valentine’s Day

Maybe not on the fourteenth but

If you’d let me I’ll do it every day

Tonight I write you a Valentine

In hopes that you’d want to be mine

I will wait for your reply

As long as the sun would rise

 

P.S. Because songs and poems are remembered while flowers wither.

Now don’t get me wrong. My boyfriend may not be a poet like that guy, but my love for him goes beyond words. I’ve lost contact with that guy ever since my boyfriend and I got back together, but I want to take this opportunity to tell him what I’ve been meaning to say since he gave me this poem:

Thank you for making me see that “I don’t just stay with him by default as if there’s no one else available to me.” There are plenty of fish in the sea they say, but it’s you who made me realize that I stay with him because I choose to. You could have been my guy, but I chose my boyfriend because I love him. Perhaps for me you will forever remain as that guy, but I believe that the time will come when you’ll meet a girl who will treat you not only as her guy, but as her man, her world, and her life as well.

Lastly, thank you for helping me find the answer to the question that I’ve been asking myself for a long time since February 14, 2013: did I make the right choice?

Answer: Yes.

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